My Monday

Had a good day eating wise yesterday. Drank ALOT of water too! I have also figured out another downside to cheating on the weekends. Not only does it throw me completely off track and either make me gain weight or prevent me from losing that week. But, it also messes with me mentally. I really enjoy that freedom of eating what I want without counting or writing things down. And I really enjoy eating all those yummy things I don't allow myself when I'm "on plan." But then Monday comes and I get back on track and I'm sad. I'm downright depressed because I miss that freedom and all those yummy things. And I'm literally like in a foul mood over it! So, that enjoyment I experienced over the weekend is followed by grumpiness and a downright crappy mood. So, is it really worth it? Are those few yummy things I enjoy when I'm off plan worth the guilt and bad mood they put me in later? Then of course, after eating those "no no" things that I had finally gotten used to not having, I start craving them again! Wouldn't it be much easier to avoid them in the first place? And not let my taste buds remember them?

I really wish that all those well meaning people who do NOT have weight problems or food issues would get some insight into how MENTAL food issues/addictions really are. It is so easy for them to say, Just Don't Eat It. When they really have NO CLUE how much mental and emotional stress is involved and that its not just a PHYSICAL issue! We are faced with food everyday, we need it for our survival. We have to stare it down, confront it and wrestle with it at least 3 or more times EVERYDAY.

Yesterday I did good. I won that match and had a successful day. Today, I'm doing well so far. But who knows about tomorrow. Or the day after that or the day after that. Each day brings a new battle.

Yesterday I got right back into the groove. It was pretty easy but in the back of my mind, I keep reminding myself that it was easy because I was only off track for a few days. And, the longer I stay off track, the harder it is to get back on. This week I'm aiming for 1 or less days off plan.

Mondays food totals were 25 points, 1,310 calories and over 100 oz. of water! I got alot of fruits and veggies in too enjoying asparagus and butternut squash for dinner along with a turkey burger (no bun) smothered in sauteed mushrooms. I also enjoyed a pear and some blackberries with my greek yogurt for an evening snack. I'm really into fresh veggies lately, so if you have any favorites or good ideas, let me know.

Have a great afternoon!