Why is this so flipping hard? That is the question I am asking myself these days. Why is it that I can sail along for MONTHS at a time, nearly a year, eating well and staying on plan then suddenly for weeks to a month, it is incredibly hard and boring and I JUST DON'T WANT TO DO IT ANYMORE? Why do I feel like that?
If I had the answer to that question, if we ALL had the answer to that question, it may explain why we continue to go off track and gain weight back. It is the cycle that hits me EVERYTIME I lose weight. It starts with just a cheat "here and there". Then it goes into a "few days on, a few days off". That's where I'm at now. Then it leads into all out JUST OFF THE PLAN. That is what I'm trying to avoid. I know you have seen me post this description of this cycle several times lately. I haven't forgotten that I've already posted it and discussed it with you all. I just KEEP posting it because I KEEP following this vicious cycle and maybe posting about it will help me understand it. WHO KNOWS?
I started back on plan last week and did well Mon-Thurs, completely within points/calorie range and even fit in a few days of walking. Then the weekend hits and I'm like Points who? Count what calories? Its like the weekend is free time and that free time must be used to eat everything that I'm not supposed to eat during the week before Monday gets here. Help me jump off this train PLEASE!
Then the rationalization begins. Then I tell myself, Oh, its just a few days. You have done so well. You've lost alot of weight. You are smaller than you've been in YEARS. A few days won't hurt you. No, a few days won't. But you know and I know that it won't stop at a few days. Those few days lead to a few more and a few more then to weeks and months and a YEAR off of plan. Which leads to a few more pounds and a few larger pants sizes!
Losing weight brings us freedom. And once we start to feel freedom we think its okay to slack up some and have some freedom in our food choices. But that inevitably, for me at least, leads to too much freedom and too many bad choices. If you feel me and you are struggling as well, or if you have given yourself too much freedom and made some bad choices lately, let me know what YOU are doing to get back on track.
I know we can all only take it one day at a time and one choice or decision at a time. But sometimes it all feels very overwhelming!
I'm going by the store on the way home tonight to stock up on fresh fruits and veggies for this week. I'm really into butternut squash lately. Yummy!
Feeling a bit depressed about many things and hoping that I won't let that lead me into a whole week off track.
Hope everyone has a good start to their week.
Stacy, I get that. Weekends especially. I just had a meltdown on Sunday that literally hit me out of the blue. I have decided to start planning my weekends better since they have less structure than my weekdays. And I have been kicking the idea around of planning in one day a month that I let myself off the leash for one meal or maybe half a day to kinda indulge. I only worry that if I "look forward" to that day, it will go down as a reward and that is not consistent with the way i want to think about food. I dunno, this is hard!
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